Home Improvement

Well, we are finally doing some home improvement. I am so excited, because it is long overdue, life happens ya know. We went to Home Depot and bought all new lights and fans, next it will be doors and knobs, and eventually we will get all the big stuff started; new tile, redo the bathrooms, etc. We just paid for all new appliances, and I think we are going to do some painting to. We already painted the whole house but we change the colors of some rooms. Anyway, I am really excited because, you know how it is, you want everything to fit your taste. But the most important is boosting that property value right on up there!! I will keep updates going on the progress.

Inevitable Life Experiences

I am on a roll with this morning, ha! I was telling my mom this morning about how she is the best mom and how much I appreciate her. I told her she is a good person and has a big heart. It got me thinking about how I have changed in some ways. Remember being innocent and giving without restrictions, because that was what came from your heart, and it was rewarding. Now it's so different. I am not saying we are all like that, but for me it has all changed over the years, and I know it has to do with my life experiences. But I feel so jaded and tarnished, sometimes I hate that about myself, because I never used to be so negative about certain things. I guess if you live it hard you see it hard. But maybe it just has to do with today's society and the way of the world, you always have to watch your back on EVERYTHING! People are, alot of times, out for themselves. I always think that way and therefore get on the defensive in my thoughts. I have to catch myself alot, before my thoughts go into words. Then I look at my husband and how he gives no matter what, without any restrictions, he doesn't automatically think that he's getting "screwed", and if he does then he learns from it and moves on, but he doesn't automatically apply the situation to everyone or everthing. I know it's not the best way to be, and I am still a giving person, I just have those negative thoughts behind things that I wish sometimes I didn't have. I look at my children and see how innocent they are and I love it. I'd rather watch their cartoons because they bring me back to the positive things that I have long forgotten. I do however, remember that's not the way God wants us to be so that's what keeps me in check.

Manners

Let me tell ya'll what happened the other day, the cutest thing. My little twins kept saying appoo (which means apple), I said "what do we say?", and they replied, "PLEASE!" in a chorus. I was so amazed and proud that my little girls caught on to good manners. I clapped and thanked them for being so polite. Then this morning, my oldest replied with, "yes maam". I am just so proud. I guess those are the little rewards of being a good parent. I am very strict about good manners, because of the way I was raised and just coming in contact with so many ill-mannered children.

Short and Funny Ones

"I am not available right now, but thank you for caring enough to call.
I am making some changes in my life. Please leave a message after the beep. If I do not return your call, you are one of the changes."
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At pilot's training back in the Air Corps they taught us, "Always try to keep the number of landings you make equal to the number of take offs you make."
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Aspire to inspire before you expire.
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My wife and I had words, but I didn't get to use mine.
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As my five year old son and I were headed to McDonald's one day, we passed a car accident. Usually when we see something terrible like that, we say a prayer for those who might be hurt, so I pointed and said to my son, "We should pray." From the back seat I heard his earnest request:
"Please, God, don't let those cars block the entrance to McDonald's."
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Frustration is trying to find your glasses without your glasses.
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Blessed are those who can give without remembering
and
take without forgetting.
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The irony of life is that, by the time you're old enough to know your way around, you're not going anywhere.
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God made man before woman so as to give him time to think of an answer for her first question.
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I was always taught to respect my elders,
but it keeps getting harder to find one.
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Every morning is the dawn of a new error...

This Explains It

Sometimes we wonder, "What did I do to deserve this?" or "Why did God do this to me?" Here is a wonderful explanation!
A daughter is telling her mother how everything is going wrong.
She's failing algebra, her boyfriend broke up with her and her best friend is moving away.

Meanwhile, her Mother is baking a cake and asks her daughter if she would like a snack, and the daughter says, "Absolutely Mom, I love your cake".

"Here, have some cooking oil," her Mother offers. "Yuck" says her daughter.

"How about a couple of raw eggs?" "Gross, Mom!"

"Would you like some flour then? Or maybe baking soda?" "Mom, those are all yucky!"

To which the mother replies: "Yes, all those things seem bad by themselves. But when they are put together in the right way, they make a wonderfully delicious cake!

God works the same way. Many times we wonder why He would let us go through such bad and difficult times. But God knows that when He puts these things in His order, they always work for good! We just have to trust Him and, eventually, they will make something wonderful!

God is crazy about you. He sends you flowers every spring and a sunrise every morning.

Whenever you want to talk, He'll listen. He can live anywhere in the universe, and He chose your heart.

Nice Ass

DesertSongbird is so funny with her picture of the ass. It looks like my husband's!! And for those of you that haven't seen it, check it out.

Blah Blah Blah

I got to thinking about my time, so far, as a mom, and it's definetely been up and down. It all started with looking at a picture of when I brought my oldest home from the hospital. I thought about how blissfull it was, the pregnancy, labor and delivery, bringing her home. I remember mourning my pregnancy and how I wanted to be pregnant again. Then I found out I was pregnant when she was 3 months old, I was elated. The pregnancy was definetly the opposite from the first, and for good reason because we found out that there were two in there!! What this all boils down to is that I had postpartem depression really bad. I know it started the day that I found out I was pregnant with twins, because I remember a surreal feeling and then it set in, I got scared. That fear eventually brought me to being depressed, because when I think about it after the fact, I don't remember bliss at all. I feel so guilty that my little twins did not have what my oldest had and I know that I have to get rid of that guilt because that's just the way it was. I just think about that time of my life and I remember misery. The babies did not sleep at night, but slept all day, I was recovering from a c-section and in pain, I had a toddler who was all over the place, and my husband was at work 13 hours a day to make the money. God pulled me through even though I felt hopeless and afraid. I feel like I am finally where I need to be in a positive sense, I still have my days, but I know what triggers my depression. I had an epiphany about all this here recently, because I never took the time to digest it before, even though I had help, I am finally at a better state of mind to take it in. I know that everyday, I make a conscious effort to be a better mother, wife and person. I do slide back at times, but I am also learning not to feel so guilty about it. I love my little girls with all of my heart, and they are so precious, and God blessed us with them. My depression brought to where I was thinking about how bad of a mother I was and my girls would be better off without a shitty mom. But, I am a great mom, and mainly because I try everyday!! I know you mothers out there know exactly what I am talking about, because I know I am not alone on all of this. Especially, where we love being a woman, because we get the beautiful experience of carrying the child and giving birth. With all due respect to the men, we couldn't do without ya, but we get the better end of the deal. Anyway, I had all this on my mind and my heart and just wanted to share.

Time To Sign In

I really haven't had any time to play on my blog. I kinda missed it! I have been working alot, trying to make a fat paycheck for a change. Momma hasn't been making any money LOL, but I love my job, and the company I work for is phenomenal (? spellcheck). Because we made such a good profit, the company sent every single employee $150.00 on Valentines Day, and told us that we were the best employees a company could ever have, now how are them apples!! hehehe! It's kinda like when Natale Maines got up during the Grammy's and did her little laugh, as if to say, "eat my dust!" It's funny because we are always the airline that "every other" airline makes fun of, but we are laughing all the way to the bank!! Sorry all, I am just proud. Anyhoo, life doesn't get better than this, some people don't ever like their job, I guess that's why some people are so angry in life, it's kind of sad. Crap! I get these brain farts, and I can't think of what to write, and it has only gotten worse since I've had kids. I was always told that I would become forgetfull, and for my, sometimes, feeble-minded brain, it doesn't take much. hehehe, I just had to crack on myself a little. My husband is over here like, "(sigh) still on blogosphere?", it's kind of cute. Oh, but my husband is so cute, hehehe! Well, better get off here.

Sigh, where does the time go

It is just unbelievable how the days just fly by! Just a few hours ago I was getting up to start the day, now I am about to end the day. Yet I still have two loads of laundry to fold, a load in the drier. And ya know what, it only goes by faster. Amazing! My kids are all going to be in preschool next year, and I will be going on 10 years with the airline I'm with. The one thing that is so beautiful about the whole thing is that my priorities are where they should be, and I really do slow down to smell the roses. The older you get, the more ya DON'T want to be in the rat race of our fast society. I LOVE the simple life! Well, I am about to lay down next to my husband, and saw logs, zzzzzzz
Peace out! LOL

Goody Swap

Sorry all, but I have been out of commission due to everyone in my family being sick, including me. I am going to be late sending my little gift, but the person I am sending it to is in India, and I can't seem to get a hold of her to get her address. I just got a message from mine, so I am not sure if I go on the next person. Someone help!! I don't want to put a gliche in the system.